Where shall I begin? The last couple of days has been difficult for me. I sense that something is going on at work. The atmosphere has been different for the last couple of weeks.  I was under lots of stress at home and work, I was feeling sick and nausea every day, am not eating, I have no appetite. I was not sleeping well, go to bed after 1am and wake up at 5am- yes.....I really woke at 5am. (like an alarm clock). I was not able to function well as a person and I know that effected me at work. I was a walking & looking like zombie day in and day out.

On Oct 4, I was notify at work that I lost my job. I had a feeling that was going to lose the job soon I know that one day I was going to leave British Airways, but I didn't think it was this soon. I've been with this company for 18 years! I can't believe that it's over! I will miss the company, my customers and most of all my job. God had shown for the last couple of days that He has much greater plans for me! My favorite verse in the Bible is Jeremiah 29:11 "For I have know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a  future." I've spoken to lots of friends since losing my job, it's evident to me that God planned all this and that there's a lesson to be taught. WHAT that lesson might be? I've asked myself that as well. My conclusion is God is my first love and NOT my job. I've been so absorbed in my job all my concentration and thoughts are constantly at work, and not on God. God took away what I cherished the most, my job. A hard lesson to learn but I know that God will not forsake me. God will carry me through this whole situation.

Before losing my job, I had people prayed for me, and with their prayers, it really helped because when I was told I lost my job, I was calm and took the news with such calmness that I could not believe it was me. But only with God's grace that I was able to handle the news. Since I lost my job, I began to notify my closest friends/contacts at British Airways, I could not fathom the support and love that these former customers had shown me. Lots of my closest friends have spoken to and gave me me words of wisdom and encouragement. It made this transition bearable. I even had several friends dreamt about my coversation with them several days ago (about me calling them and notifying them that I lost my job). In their dreams they remember the exact conversation that I had with them isn't that scary! I see this whole situation clearly now, God planned all this so that I can be free of the hold my job has on me, and to focus on Him.

For now I will take time off, be refreshed and spend time with God. Get started on my resume and will start looking for a job shortly. I pray that God will open the doors for me and I will choose wisely as to which door to go through. 

It's been 3 months since my last entry. Alot has happened since.

May 19- We moved out of Flushing and into Jamaica. It took us about  12 hours and 15 people to help us move. YES.......I have tons of  "stuff". Now we have broadband! THANKS Roadrunner!

May 26-28- we went to Camp of the Woods, where about 19 of us went to volunteer and clean up at a Christian retreat center. The group went to Camp Tapawingo (an island)  where girls ages 9-17 years old go to spend time with each other and learn about Jesus. The weekend was a filled with lots of cleaning, yummy food and most of all great time to spend with my friends. Afterwards the guys went to the lake to canoe. THANK YOU guys!

June 2- we went to Leed's Pond Science Museum- where I brought about 21 Awana children. Awana is a club  for boys and girls between the ages 4-13, we meet every Friday night. Awana is an acronym for Approved Workmen Are Not Ashamed taken from 2 Timothy 2:15. The mission of Awana is to reach boys & girls and their families, with the Gospel of Christ, to train them to serve Him (Learn about the prayer, vision, mission, values of Awana). Our evening consists of games, handbook, art & craft and counsel time, we have leaders, who volunteers and helps out on Friday nights. I was their commander, as of June 15, it was my last day, I stepped down.

June 15- was my last day of being the Awana Commander- it was bittersweet to see the evening ending. The evening ended with an ice cream social. The kids LOVED it! I will miss the children dearly.....LOVE YOU ALL!

June 16- Amanda's graduation day! The Suhu Family was pretty busy.....about 24 guest attended Amanda's graduation. Mike and I were beaming from ear to ear when she deliver her valadictorian speech. Can't believe that Amanda is going to high school! I still can't believe that I have a teenager.....life should get interesting. Below is a picture of Amanda and her best friend Rebecca, the salutatorian. Congratulations Amanda and Rebecca! God Bless and may He guide you both throughout your lives as you grow closer to Jesus.

June 17- FINALLY the day has ARRIVED!- we headed for the airport at 9am- our flight departs at 1:45pm, we flew on Japan Airlines- the food and service was excellent- btw- I highly recommend this airline. The best part of this flight is that we can dress in jeans, t-shirts and sneakers! Isn't that great! It was wonderful to fly as regular customers and not as airline employees. We flew into Narita, Japan stayed overnight and flew into Xiamen, China the next day. Once we enter Xiamen, China on June 19,  we started our short term mission (trip was for about 2 weeks). We had VBS (vacation bible school) at a local school, spoke with the red and blue tags members, spoke to the resturant employees and had 3 carnivals for the children. We even had a clown at the carnival.  

July 4- we had a huge family and friends get together at my parent's house. It was a great time of catching up and just to spend time with our love ones.

July 5- Amanda's 14th birthday! Can't believe it that she's grown into a young lady! It was just yesterday that I brought her home, all 8 1/2 lbs and 21 1/2 inches long. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Amanda!

July 28- Aug 4- a group of us went to the Adirondack Mountains and had a wonderful time. We went hiking, canoeing and made some pottery. I made cups for Mike and I, made tea caddys for the girls. The weather was beautiful, and sunny everyday.

Aug 5- Kristina's 10th birthday! Can't believe my little one hit the double digits. I can't believe that Mike and I made it to our 17th year wedding anniversary. Time just flies by quickly. HAPPY BIRTHDAY little one! 

I had an unexpected surprise, I went to school to pick up Kristina. Amanda told me a wonderful news that she was selected as the valedictorian of her graduating class. Rebecca, Amanda's best friend is the saluatorian .

When Amanda told me, that she was selected as valedictorian,  I was stunned, when I recovered I broke down and cried, overwhelmed with joy that my oldest daughter recieved the highest honor. Mike was also stunned as well, we both could not have believed that she was selected.

The past couple of months had been very rough for the Suhu family. Upon hearing this news, was truly a blessing from God.

I can't believe that Amanda and Rebecca are graduating from Jr High, it seem just yesterday that I gave birth to a 8 1/2 lb baby girl. How I missed hearing the little feet tattering.

CONGRATULATIONS Amanda and Rebecca! We LOVE you!